28.07.2011 - Sorry That I Love You

One of the last few songs on your facebook profile



im still in denial.
126days since you left us.
forever.

i believe,
this song best describe the situation you are in.
before you made your final decision.

to leave us forever.

i regret.
not treating you better.

i promise that i will treat your kids better.

whats done cannot be undone.
im still trying to get over this.

my dear friends.
my apology for not able to turn up for anything, or any event.
i really hope you guys can understand.
i dropped, too low.
which i really need time to build myself up, as well as,
to spend more time with my family.

like this song
Sorry doesn't turn back time.








<3<3<3<3<3

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true but
sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And I'm so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true but
sorry doesn't turn back time

For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right

So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make any difference tonight
But I'm hoping "I'm sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

<3<3<3<3<3

24.06.2011

friday night

and im at home.

i thought of you this morning when i go to work.

100 days is reaching
give me the energy to fold more joss paper okay.

miss ya!

12.05.2011 - 7749

我好想你
你好吗？

已经是49天了
你还好吗？
真的好想你

05.05.2011 - forty-2

菊花残满地伤 你的笑容已泛黄; 花落人断肠 我心事静静躺.
北风乱　夜未央 你的影子剪不断. 徒留我孤单 在湖面成双。 
(菊花台）

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着, 要怎么停呢?  
(说好的幸福呢）

看不見你的笑　我怎麼睡得著? 也許時間是一種解藥; 也是我現在正服下的毒藥.
（彩虹）

没有你在 我有多难熬
（开不了口）

白杨木 影子被拉长 像我对你的思念走不完。原来我从未习惯 你已不在我身旁
（雨下一整完）

翻著我們的照片　想念若隱若現
（借口）

说了再见，才发现再也见不到 能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
(说了再见）

03.05.2011 - Forty.

问候是我对你好想说出的话

现在你过的好吗

28.04.2011 - 害怕

我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差

*我的爱
是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱

我不再
去执拙我是谁
或是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟未能让你相信是爱情
左右你我

而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

*************

somethings, i just cant mention here.

as many friends read this tiny space of mine.

but kor, RIP okay.

27 April 2011 - Day 34 - a song from you to me

kor, you introduce this song to me de

you was going nananana non stop that time...

It's been so long
That I haven't seen your face
I'm tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away

It wont be long
Before I get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

Girl I know mistakes were made between us two
And we show our eyes that night
Even said somethings weren't true
Why'd you go and haven't seen my girl since then
Why can't it be the way it was?
Cos you were my homie, lover and friend

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/akon/right_now.html ]
I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much

I miss you much
I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much
I miss you much

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I want you to fly with me
Want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
Miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
Wish you could dine
One that would grind with me
One that would grind with me

I want you to fly with me
Want you to fly
I miss how you lie with me
Miss how you lie
Just wish you could dine with me
Wish you could dine
One that would grind with me
One that would grind

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

I wanna make up right now, na na
I wanna make up right now, na na
Wish we never broke up right now, na na
We need to link up right now, na na

25.04.2011 - Day 32: 你最近還好嗎?

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大

有没有什麽好方法
让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法
让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

20.4.2011 - 煎熬

日子过的好煎熬

你在那里，好吗？

你可好了，对吗？
家里的事 你都不理了
小朋友好顽皮
你也不理了

Kor 真的好累
还是希望 这一切都是假的

但是 我知道这已经是事实

Kor I missed you.

14.4.2011 - I miss you

Kor

I visited you at 三清宫 yesterday
Did u see me?

Please bopi the family hao ma?
Let jiejie recover fast
Let the girls be good girls

No longer blaming you
But
I still wants to know
Why did u do that?

Not from others
But from yourself
But I know, I will never know why you did it

It will always remain as a mystery for me
Kor
I miss you deeply

12.4.2011 - 突然好想你 你会在哪里?

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚

绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息 

想念如果会有声音

不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己


突然好想你
你会在哪里?
过的快乐或委屈?
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛


我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品


我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去


突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛


最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息


最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

11.4.2011 - DAY 18. HOW ARE YOU?

Day 18.
korkor. how are you over there?

it still seems to me that you are on a overseas trip kinda of feeling.
im glad that you protected jiejie, and jiejie is moving on.
handling the after-effect of you.
keep it up and protect jiejie, let her recover fast fast.

you havent protect baobei yet right?
must remember to do so okay?
she has been very very naughty.
please help us okay.

enen is very guai.
:) just dont let her cry at night okay.
and dont cry so often too.

both of them are very sensible.

hope you are well up there.
will go san qing gong and pray you soon.

i will go do a album, of your baobeis picture.
motivate me ya. so that when they grow up.
they can see.





lots of love from me to you.

5.4.2011 - 感冒了

在十二天内，我感冒了三次都是因为你。

 你有给姐姐力量吗？

你有给宝贝们乖乖的力量吗？

你有给我们力量吗？

korkor, 我不要生病。我要快快好起来

要帮你照顾

宝贝们

吃巧克力时间

 

3.4.2011 - i've learnt...

i've learnt to

shower your baobeis
prepare their milk for them
be their playmate

they are all in good hands
we will be the disciplinary masters

goodbye.

1.4.2011 - it's been a week

One week ago. You are still alive.
One week ago at this timing. You are still alive.

Can you tell me it's just a April fool joke?

30.3.2011 - the days without you

Today is the 6th day that you have left us

Sorry William korkor

I wasn't able to pick up your ashes

For the last time

See you

For the last time

I was sick

Thus they want me to stay at home

And

Look after your baobei and enen

Send your baobei and enen to school

This is something

You can't do anymore

The aunties and Eileen jiejie

Will do it on your behalf

baobei is being well taken care of.

Baobei was traumatized

You had her traumatized

She doesn't want to go home

She wants to stay at gma house

Visit her there if you want

I promise you

That I will love baobei and enen

On your behalf

放心好好走

28.3.2011 - I don't want to accept this

Kor kor

I really missed you.
I can't face what is going to happen tml.
I still hope that
This is just a nightmare.

A horrible nightmare.

I will not feel frustrated anymore
If you call and ask me how to pull the taskbar back

I should have just call you that day
And ask u out for supper treat

I shouldn't have said that you are fat
I wouldn't

But

It seems like
This is for real
And non of us is really ready to accept the truth

Can you just wake up?
And tell me this is just a joke of yours?

Kor, please.
Dont do this to us.
Jut wake up and tell me it's a joke.

I know that I should accept the truth
But
I can't bring myself to do it.

I can't.