3 November 2011

many things happened, close friends knew.
long to go out, but no where to.

work was good, happy and fun.
family in a mess,at least for me.

unable to meet up to their expectations,
or expectations perceived by me.
changes was needed, reserved for me.
non that i felt, i should do.

rather depress, rather sad.
kept my mouth shut, that's what i will do.

looking for the next exit,
then i can go.

a place where
i feel like home.

I will be moving away,
from here (blogspot).
Hopefully for good.

a place where, i could speak.
people that dont judge, will know where to look for me.

20.4.2011 - 说多错多

可能
我太多管闲事了


可能
我太多嘴了

可能
我不应该太过敏感

说多错多
我因该再也不说了。

20.4.2011 - 煎熬

日子过的好煎熬

你在那里，好吗？

你可好了，对吗？
家里的事 你都不理了
小朋友好顽皮
你也不理了

Kor 真的好累
还是希望 这一切都是假的

但是 我知道这已经是事实

Kor I missed you.

14.4.2011 - I miss you

Kor

I visited you at 三清宫 yesterday
Did u see me?

Please bopi the family hao ma?
Let jiejie recover fast
Let the girls be good girls

No longer blaming you
But
I still wants to know
Why did u do that?

Not from others
But from yourself
But I know, I will never know why you did it

It will always remain as a mystery for me
Kor
I miss you deeply

12.4.2011 - 突然好想你 你会在哪里?

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚

绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息 

想念如果会有声音

不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己


突然好想你
你会在哪里?
过的快乐或委屈?
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛


我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品


我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去


突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛


最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息


最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

5.4.2011 - 感冒了

在十二天内，我感冒了三次都是因为你。

 你有给姐姐力量吗？

你有给宝贝们乖乖的力量吗？

你有给我们力量吗？

korkor, 我不要生病。我要快快好起来

要帮你照顾

宝贝们

吃巧克力时间

 

3.4.2011 - i've learnt...

i've learnt to

shower your baobeis
prepare their milk for them
be their playmate

they are all in good hands
we will be the disciplinary masters

goodbye.

1.4.2011 - it's been a week

One week ago. You are still alive.
One week ago at this timing. You are still alive.

Can you tell me it's just a April fool joke?

25.03.2011 - to my beloved William korkor

U just left us like that
Without a warning

Repeated a same act as your mum
How do your father feels?
How does your siblings feel?
How does grandma feels?

Have you thought about your two kids at home?
Have you thought about your wife?

The family are all in shocked.
Sadness.

What do you want us to do?

you promise to bring me to the kelong to fish.
you promise to bring me to MBS for the hotel stay.
you owe me an angbao for this year CNY.

how are you going to fulfill this?
i havent even see you this year.

why!
why!

17.1.2011 - fake bruise grew a partner!

help help

hopefully someone can give me an answer by sat,

before i visit the doctor!

there is this bruise like spot on my thigh

it was with me for like 5 to 6 years already.

it suddenly grew a spot there.

i notice today.

it grow a partner!
helphelp needed.

can anyone tell me what is it??

it doesnt cause any pain

thus the first one, the doctor ask me to ignore it.

but now got partner liao wor!!

tag at my tagboard and give me the answer if you know.

it look like this......

ps: i think im dying!

16.3.2011 - fickle minded

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind


But only love can stay Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do 

cant make up my mind again!

15.3.2011 - You spin me right round, baby, right round

You spin me right round, baby, right round
like a record baby, right round round round.
You spin me right round, baby, right round
like a record baby, right round round round.

yes, im feeling giddy.

cant compete module4 tonight. ultimate sadness.

14.3.2011 - stay +ve

yes.

i need to stay +ve (positive)

despite the naggings i get at home.

of course!

the reason of naggings is not because of things that i have done wrong.

but

to listen to her rantings.

something that i cant stand.

 but i cant tell her that i dont want to listen

as this maid is selected by you, yourself.

a decision you made.

yet 

you rant at me for venting.

haix.

this isnt a home that i like to be in.

its no longer the same.

Credits:
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7.3.2011 - speechless

this is gonna be a post without any pictures.
anyone that get tired of words, can just close this window.

i told myself that i shouldnt post anything that is not-happy here.
but i cant help it.
sorry.


heard a shocking news from weisiang
and i dont know how to react.
but it has been bothering me the past nights.

i still felt bad about it.
but i felt that it is only good for me not to attend the wake.

for not talking to each other for like more than 5years.
and the only reason for me to show up is due to someone's death.
i doubt this is good.
thus, i decided not to turn up.
in order not to worsen the situation.
perhaps is ego at work.

but.
i do not feel good.
i felt terrible.
not being able to sleep well.
tons of past people went through my mind at night.
wendy's mom, wen bin, her bro, my grandfathers...

i cant help
and i cant sleep in peace.

hope the prayers i chant might help.