[ updatees again before i go missing! ]

tried and do alot of things the past weeks.

happenings too!

tried foot reflexology.
which i alway think that it is super painful

tried taking qy's car. =x

turns out to be alright.
and.
even though the next day i got blue black.
hahaha

finally met wtan.
didnt know she stay a stone throw away from office.

haha.

watched "my gf is an agent" and "poker king"
nice shows!

exams on 15 dec, which is tsj bday.

then.

ideas sparked up now.
sort of have a new place to stay. but
dont really suit me.

think sooner or later have to go lor.

updates soon!

[ updatessssss...... ]

after the WPL test.

me and ah jess went to illuma and play arcade

and

i played from no blister to 2 blisters on my hand to

both busted.
=x

taiko drums.

very fun, relaxing, vulgarities alot as well.
anyone that thought u saw me and was thinking that
the siao zhar bo isnt me.
hahaha

it is me..
ahahhaa

stress relieving.
cos all converted and exported out.
=x

and i missed enen 1st birthday.
sorry enen, next time jiejie bring you go gaigai okok!

end of the year shall be my target.

try to donate blood this afternoon.
and kana rejected at the very last stage.
nabei lor
i scared like hell, finally got the courage and at the seat liao.

"sorry ah, veins too small...."

argh!

i shall try next time!

[ coping hard ]

tears been dropping.

since friday.

i wish to be alone.
yes.
away from them.
im may be cruel.
but.
anyone knows that im suffering?

gave in and gave in.

this is the maximum i can go.
im going crazy already.

everything i do is not right.
everyday pass by.

i haven even start studying for my test this saturday.
sharks.

and
i only got 9.5/15 for my class test!

what does it mean?
im not working hard enough?

or my efforts are fruitless?

i really dont know.
im going crazy soon.

real soon.
=(

[ tears ]

been in tears for the past few days.

compressed for too long and i bursted.

i shouldnt have threatened you abt death.
but.
you guys had been pushing me.

yes.
there is times.
that im at my verge of doing it.
but i didnt.

cos
you guys are the most precious thing i would want to treasure my whole life.

right now.
i hope.
i begged.

that you guys let me go.

the only thing i ever beg of you guys in my life.

my apologies to the both of you.

i promised.
to be there for you.
when you needed me.

mentally or physically.

ive been very bad.
sorry.

let me go.

[ everything is no longer there ]

not gonna step into that place anymore.

you guys wont see me any longer.

focus is no longer there
shall concentrate searching on my focal point.
since.
it went missing for so long.

cant focus at all.

catcat is no longer there
catcat isnt there.
after sterilization.
please come back to jiejie.
jiejie will be buying u a collar.

come back soon ya.

differentiation is no longer there
many decision done.
many thoughts run.
what is right and what is wrong.
i no longer can differentiate.

what is differentiation?
please define.

so,
what is left behind?

please enlighten me.

[ projects&tests]

yup.
in less than 10 days.
i gotta submit my proj.
in less than 10days
i gotta have my test

however
proj not completed
and
revision not started.

stress-o-meter is high as usual.

im still cocking things up.
bloody hell me.

sometimes i really hate myself.

made some major decision.
await my annoucement.

[ chiong ah! ]

dearest 1b19.

so sorry that i have been busy with work and school.
thus
unable to meet you guys up.

not only u all.

ah ling haven seen me for a long time too.
but
school lar.

i have got no choice.
=x

we will meet up ok!!!!!
maybe one of the afternoons lar.

i see jess see until i sick of her liao.
ahahhahahaa.

im now chiong my projects.
with a nice bunch of teammates.

targeting to clear both project in 2 weeks.
heh heh.
more haste less speed, i know.
but, we need more of both.

found out something.
vitamin c is a energy booster!!
ahhaa
everytime i drink, i feel more focus.
hehehehe.


ok doned.

i updated.
need to zzz le.
zzz monster looking for me le
and im waking up at 6 tml.

muacks.

chiong work tml.....